爱Lord of the Morgue恨

The Four Letter Lie.

I watch the life die in my eyes

Image in the mirror masked by this unnerving disguise

You held so hard to that four letter lie

I sit, Numb, Untouched

Heart dissipating

Ash to dust

Remove me if you must

Young blood pumped much too fast

Distilled liquor of lust

Chained away somewhere far

Unlocking my trust

You hated yourself and I never knew why

Now for fucking once

Eyes opened and I

Discover how content you are creating your own pain

Drowning in waters 

Made when you cry, I cry

I cried meaningless body fluid reaction to hurt

Distorted vision consuming

To me, Now nothing you’re worth

I let myself fall for much less than a man

I gave you my all, I did all that I can

I wasted this time,

One life I have on this earth

I’ll add you to the list

Eyes closed, And rebirth

You took something away that I can never get back

Robbing me to replace the attention you lack

But you and I know,

I’m not easy to forget

And when you’re restless at night

I hope you regret

You lost a true soul that did nothing but try

Now without remorse and fists clenched tight

Mother, He took it

He stole my light

He brought back the pain that was felt when you died

She’s quiet, She smiles

Your heart he may betray

But you already know

The love in your heart wasn’t put there to stay

Love isn’t love until you give it away.

Posted 1 month ago — 1 note

Perceptively Divine.

What will become of me 

When this heart is crushed from its unseen transparency

Cooperating with internal signals sent far from untouched memory

As of late it’s been unbearably

Consuming me whole, Losing all control

It is clear you never cared for me 

What is obvious and intricate simplicity

Illusions designated to alter my reality

In actuality, 

Rhythmical translations concerning this duality

Suppressing my antic disposition

Concluding I, the cause

And withdraw into submission

Clear away the fear and try to stop

And listen

Falling forward into hysteria with the turns of time

Lingering in the remembrance of what I thought was mine

We design,

Ultimately our fates, generate our souls decline

Perceptive minds ascending upward towards the heavenly divine

Posted 1 month ago — 1 note

Freestyle 7/5/10

An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind

Yet words still spoken in order to reverse tension unwind

It’s like,

Time after time

I oversee the crime

All desperate attempts on the fragile

Like tryin’ to re-align a broken spine

My mind ticks away as all disintegrate

I wait while your choices generate your fate

Your distaste of every single being making this world a waste

I mean,

I could say I’m alright and everything is fine

Just another lie like an american losing their appetite

Watching you fall apart and dreams sucked dry

Remaining faithful to my belief that we accomplish if we try

There’s a meaning underlying and you just don’t know

We all have meaning you’re defying

And it’s ready to grow

Go,

Know in time we’ll all be dying

But at this moment start deciding what you’re worth

Meanwhile I’m flying.

Posted 1 month ago — 1 note

Cancer.

Where are we?

How did we get so far?

Far away from ourselves

How can we,

Can we trust again?

We begin

And we end

Walk away

From destruction in progress

I’m the one that’s fallen farthest

Yet you say it doesn’t bother

I know

That inside your heart, it falters

But I’m trying so much harder

To Breathe 

While being held down under water

Slowly passing by

The time, never seems to slow

But I, I can never tell, no

I can never tell you

What I do not know myself

Wait for it

Wait for you to

Wait for me to break again

Walk away

From destruction in progress

I’m the one that’s fallen farthest

Yet you say it doesn’t bother

I know

That inside your heart, it falters

But I’m trying so much harder

To Breathe 

While being held down under water

Open your eyes

To what is really there

Faded dreams dried

So why are we still here?

Open your eyes

To what is really there

I’ve lost my mind

But my heart can be repaired

Walk away

From destruction in progress

I’m the one that’s fallen farthest

Yet you say it doesn’t bother

I know

That inside your heart, it falters

But I’m trying so much harder

To Breathe 

While being held down under water

I know in time

I’ll discover all the answers

I’ll find what really matters

I’ll distinguish reality from

What we are

And what you mean to me

Posted 1 month ago — 1 note

High Tide.

Lifted up

I was falling

I fell

Into the sky

But I remembered, well

How could I forget?

Those words you said

Or better yet

The ones you didn’t say

Your voice it sounded

So warm and inviting

I’m not sure if you

Could tell

How much I was

Frightened

Now that’s

Just a memory

That has passed

Into the swallowing sea

That’s left of me

Washed ashore

I just

Couldn’t swim, but

But there’s so much more

You know that

There’s so much more

This story stays inside

The many ways that I

Could interpret all the lines

That used to sound like lies

And if you really try

The simplicity that hides

In every word defined

This rhythm i’ve designed

I’m hiding close behind

I’m hiding to be found

I’m hiding and hope you

Find me

Posted 4 months ago — 2 notes

Silence.

Filtered in I take

Droned out tones made by mistake

Perceptions slipping farther

I can’t hear this world when I’m awake

Fighting seems so useless

Trying seems so hard

Inviting in this nuisance

Regretting each step forward

To live without this music

I would rather die

I’m losing in this silence

Flickering behind these damaged eyes

The flame is almost finished

Ignited just to burn

You’re poking at the ashes

Doing everything to remember her

Every attempt to dismiss this

Left me with wanting more

Let down after let down

Pierce through scar tissue from before

I don’t know what the fuck to do

I don’t know where the fuck to go

My light is getting darker now

I want, I need, but I don’t know.

Posted 5 months ago — 8 notes

Solace.

Fingertips touch 

Lighter than the misplaced dust

Heart like liquid

Washed up kid trusted

You said I was, I was the one

The one you let go

Silent lip lust

Eyeing from across the room

You haven’t missed much

Our lying may have interfered

With what?

What was left but how it ends 

With love

Love?

Hunger hip thrust

Hold on to your dried eyes dear

None of this was

How we hoped to find me here

You’re not the heart

I thought I lost so long ago 

Confusion digs deep and grows

You changed me

I changed your heart

You couldn’t figure out why

But you knew it from the start

You don’t believe in forever

We both know that’s a lie

Forever you’ll remember

And forever so will I

Posted 7 months ago — 2 notes

Insatiable.

Finding a way around

Fictional feelings that keep me going

Figuring out how to say now

Everything that’s kept me from showing

You, 

Oh you may never know

My mind’s projectional

I’m caught up so far

I’ve grown, yet I’m gone

I’m losing this war

And I’m lost in you,

And I’ve got to choose

Whichever way I turn

This is never right

But is it so wrong?

I can’t sleep at night

And this heart it belongs

In its rightful place

The steps we take

And back we trace

Forget everything I say

Forget me

Posted 10 months ago